2018… What A Year

This year has come to a close so quickly. I thought this year would go by slower because we weren’t counting down to anything. Last year my sister was getting married so I had her bridal shower in April, her bachelorette party in May, and in June we all went to Mexico for a week for the wedding. Best vacation I have ever been on, I still miss it and think about it constantly. But all of those exciting things made half of the year go by so fast. Then when fall hits, the holidays follow closely behind and boom it is a new year. I thought since we had no big events to countdown to this year, it would go by slower. I was so wrong. I think this year may have been even faster than last.

It is no secret that my 2018 started off terribly. For those who don’t know, to put it shortly, I got dumped in the end of January (the 28th to be precise because I am a psycho girl and remember everything) and I lived with the guy. By March I moved in with my sister and I have been here since. It was a rough transition. It was a rough time of my life in general. Losing someone because they CHOSE to not choose you anymore is a whole different kind of hurt. Hours I spent in my car (not by choice, but the move tripled my commute) thinking of all the ways I went wrong or what I should have done differently, or how he just didn’t want ME or how maybe I wasn’t good enough (if you want the raw feelings of those days read this post from May). To see me now from where I was then, I have grown a lot. Some days are still bad but in different ways, I am still growing and learning. I have since learned and realized that what we had was not what I wanted, but what I hoped would change into what I wanted. I have learned that I should not have to make excuses for the emotion that was lacking, or the needs that were not being met. I have realized how much I actually need simple signs of affection and am deserving of that. I am coming to find out that it is okay to be picky and to be myself because I want someone who wants all parts of me (including the weirdo and including the psycho).

Something I have probably suffered from most this year was comparing myself to my friends and family and feeling left out because I am the only single one now. What is funny though is that this is all me because no one has left me out for being single (maybe that is one of this biggest things I have learned this year, that I am literally my own worst enemy and the biggest critic in the whole dang world). My friends still all include me of course, and nothing is really different except that I don’t have a date to things. But it is not like all my friends are the types of PDA couples who are all lovey dovey all of the time. I am so thankful that Heather’s boyfriend has just grown accustomed to me being their third wheel LOL! They even call their spare bedroom my room (you guys are da best and I love being your roomie/extra date 😉 ). I just need to work on feeling confident with where I am in life right now.

It was hard to go from where I was, to being single and renting a room from my sister because I can’t afford to live in the same city, let alone county, as my job (I am also letting my age play a huge factor in my expectations which is just silly but yeah). I would have to constantly remind myself that this was not permanent, it was just my current situation that I was working through. Not that I was embarrassed by it, but I felt like I had taken so many steps back. So far back that I was living back in the town I had left. But no one has judged me for it. Most people understand because California is so freaking expensive to live in alone. But since moving, I have come to terms with my current situation and I am okay. I know there is nothing wrong with it, and I get to live with my sister, who is one of my best friends, and get to be here while my niece is young and get to watch her grow and be a role model for her. Things could be worse, but they aren’t. I am with family and I am safe.

Now for some good things (sorry, I didn’t expect this to be a novel but I guess it is going to be). I hadn’t been single for a long time span IN A LONG TIME. After getting over the whole bad part about it, I started getting excited about the good. I had and still have no one to answer to. If I want to go do something I can do it, and I do! I wanted to focus more on my stuff, like this blog, and I have, AND IT SHOWS. All of my friends have told me what a difference they have seen in my work and content, and just being creative in general. I do this because I love it and I want to make something out of it. Having some real focus and time has made a world of difference (plus he-who-must-not-be-named didn’t really support my blog and thought it was dumb *GASP!*). [sidebar: it still amazes me how we can finally be at a point where we recognize all of the bad things and the red flags we ignored yet still miss them sometimes. Is it them we miss or just the time and the “comfort”?]

I don’t know how many times I just left for the weekend and went to Palm Springs to be with Heather. Or the three or more times I went to Vegas to visit my sister Tab, or the random times I call up Cher and ask her to hang out because it literally takes two minutes to drive to her house. I have freedom to be me right now and I am really starting to enjoy it. I cannot wait to really take advantage of it next year. 2018 was all about healing and learning. I think 2019 will be about learning and experiencing. I am ready to have fun, have adventures, learn and grow. What I am most excited about is all of this exciting stuff and tying it to my blog. It is all Tab and I have been able to talk about, all of the new things we want to do in 2019 writing and content creating wise. Which is why you may think it is funny that I am so excited for my blog in 2019 and I am taking the entire month of January off *insert puzzled face*.

I will still be around on Instagram, and using my captions as a form of writing and keeping you up to date, but I need a month to focus on something completely different. There is some studying for a course I need to get done that I have had for some months now, but I always choose to blog instead of study because obviously that is way more fun. I have three books I need to get through and I am not even half way through the first. My goal is to finish the first book by the end of January (or earlier if possible), then I will hopefully be in such a studying groove that I can bring back blogging in February and still finish the second book by the end of Feb, then finish the third by March (I will tell you what I am doing once I am done haha). I am thinking I will come back to the blog on my birthday, Feb. 7th, since that is kind of like my new year, right? Plus once I have this studying complete I will have even more time to focus on the blog.

Okay I will end here since this is getting lengthy, I hope you have made it this far! I am excited for tonight. I have NEVER been this excited for a new year but I am ready to take it on. I will post my resolutions/goals for the new year tomorrow and then I am out for the month! If I end up doing really well with studying maybe I will reward myself with a post, but let’s be honest, this stuff is boring so I don’t see rewards in my future. But here is to wishful thinking and no sleep!

Happy New Year’s Eve everyone! Be safe and talk to you next year!

Cheers! -Britt

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Yes I was this extra and made my sister take this photo yesterday so I would have it ready. BUT ISN’T IT THE CUTEST?!

Look linked here! Dress | Heels | Champs (Costco 😉 )

NYE Looks!

You guys, New Year’s Eve is right around the corner and I haven’t even decided what I am wearing yet! I had a look all set and I ordered it from Nordstrom and AFTER 16 DAYS of it not shipping I finally got the notice that it was cancelled. That was 16 days wasted where I could have been looking for another look! Of course I want to be sparkly, it is NYE duh! I ordered a back up dress like two days before my first option got cancelled just to be safe. I got it last night and finally tried it on… I swear if I lifted a finger my butt cheeks would show, so that is getting returned. I have a third option which may end up being my outfit if I can’t find anything else. I do really like it, I found it on another blogger (@stylethegirl), but I was really wanting to wear my white booties and I can’t with this outfit…. I also ordered ANOTHER dress option BUT it was the last one so I don’t even know if it will ship. Ugh why is this so hard this year?!

Anyway, during mine and Amanda’s Christmas look try on haul (catch up here) we did a couple NYE looks too. Everything is linked below and I have linked some other fun sequin pieces! It’s NYE, sparkles feel like a must!

Linked here: Silver Dress | Velvet Duster | Striped Dress

(This silver dress is so fun and cute but again, too short for me.)

Below are some there fun pieces! (all pics from Nordstrom)

This is the green dress that was too short on me but might work for someone else, and this is my back up skirt! Linked here: Dress | Skirt

Mostly obsessed with these sets from Topshop!! Linked here: Green Top | Green Skirt | Pink Top | Pink Skirt

Sparkle dresses are always a good idea! Linked here: Purple | Blue(ish) | Gold

Lastly I love these fun longer pieces! If you want to go for a more classy and high fashion look, these would be awesome! Linked here: Skirt | Pants

Do you already know what you’re wearing? I will update you when I figure my life out!

XOXO- B

Feeling Meh

Going through a moment where my high school and college first love just had his first baby with his wife, and my ex and last love is posting photos with some random when after almost four years he wouldn’t post a single picture, let alone a Snapchat with me. And I finally went on my first half date, as in coffee, and although it wasn’t bad nor was it exciting, I’m offended that he stopped texting me first and just can’t comprehend why he didn’t like me. Even though I keep saying, “but I don’t care” and I promise I don’t! But like, I should have been the one to stop texting him, EVEN THOUGH I already stressed about how to break up with someone you’re not actually dating. All the while I’m sitting on the couch eating an extra large bowl of Cinna-Amazing Crunch, because I’m too cheap to buy real Cinnamon Toast Crunch, besides you get more bang for your buck with the off brand in a bag. Wow this whole paragraph feels like one giant run on sentence… I was telling my bffff that I have a vicious cycle going on in my head and that she doesn’t want to go in there… it is scary.

I don’t even know what it wrong with me. It is like I am “wallowing in self pity” as the Grinch would say, yet I can laugh at myself about it? I can identify the fact that I am being internally pitiful, yet I am continuing to be pitiful. Maybe it is the holidays. This is my first holiday season being single, which is weird considering I had a tradition going for the last four years. His family on Christmas Eve and my family on Christmas day. Now I have Christmas Eve free and nothing to do because my family doesn’t do Christmas Eve… It is cool, I will get through. I am actually really looking forward to the new year and putting this year behind me. Despite the fact that it started off like total garbage, I wouldn’t say it was a particularly bad year. Don’t get me wrong, it was bad, but most of the bad was at the beginning and just kind of lingered through the rest of the year, rearing its bad head when I was feeling down… as in right now.

But like I said, I am really looking forward to 2019. It is going to be a fresh start, baptized from 2018. A lot of 2018 was me figuring out myself (and complaining a bit, and comparing a lot), and although I am not 100% figured out (What? I am a complicated being), I am ready to act on some of the things I want as well as continue to figure out what I want. In addition I really want to focus on NOT comparing. It is really hard not to do, but when I can identify myself being caught in this trap, I want to take a step back and remember there is a plan for me, yadda-yadda-yadda (I know this “plan” talk is real, and I know it is in God’s hands, I truly know and believe that. But sometimes you don’t want to hear that AGAIN, hence the “yadda-yadda”. But I do love all of my people who remind me of this).

Well I think this post may be taking a turn for the confusing so I will stop here, thanks for making it this far! Just felt like I had to get some thoughts down or my brain might explode.

Anyways, I cant believe it is about to be Christmas and the end of the year! I will be taking a blog break in January. I know, I know you will all miss me ;), but I will explain more shortly!

Bye! – xoxo

PSA: Fave Dress On Sale!!

You probably know that my favorite dress is the ruched body-con by Leith from Nordstrom, considering I have five different colors. I’ve said before that I call it the blogger dress because like all of the bloggers have it, and I’m totally okay and open to admitting that I jumped right on that band wagon and I don’t care! It’s such an amazing dress and makes you look so good. I love that you can wear it to work and for going out. It’s so classy yet still sexy with the wrap type bottom.

Well… I now have six of them and most likely will be adding my seventh, but with good reason! There are ten colors on sale right now!! I just added this bright coral, or as it’s called “Pink Teaberry”, and I’m so excited. Pantone’s color of 2019 is “Living Coral” so I am just getting a head start on this soon to be growing trend. Now the “living” part of living coral is unclear to me… as in coral before it dies when it is brought out of the water? Does that mean faded or dull coral should be called dead coral? I will research and report back, but regardless, I’m stoked it is bright coral.

I wore this dress to my sister-in-law’s bridal shower this past Sunday. We were on balloon duty so naturally I took advantage and snapped a photo with all 30 balloons because 1- they were pretty colors, and 2- I had 30 balloons sooo why not.

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Go check out the colors on sale, I promise you won’t regret it! The long sleeve version is on sale too in some colors I’ve linked those too!

Tank Dress | Long Sleeve Dress

Holiday Looks!

The Holidays are in full swing which means parties and get togethers, which therefore means party outfits are in need! I love dressing up for the holidays and even more, I love planning for dressing up for the holidays. I always wish I had a bunch of fancy parties to go to so I have an excuse to dress up, however this year, I have been really into dressing up more casual outfits. This is totally unlike me, considering I wore JEANS ON THANKSGIVING. I ALWAYS plan on a dress, but this year I was really digging the jeans and sweater look.

Anywho, Amanda and I did a try on haul at Nordstrom for some fun and different holiday looks. All items are linked below!

Burgundy is always a good holiday color whether it is the majority of your look, or your one pop of color. Both looks can be dressed up or down with either heels, boots, or booties (I especially love this scarf Amanda found!). Linked below:

Left: Sweater | SkirtRight: Sweater | Jeans | Scarf

Corduroy skirts are SO FUN! I love that they can be dressy or causal. Paired with a loose print top and they are perfect for a family get together. Again, both can be dressed up or down with heels, booties, or boots! Linked below:

Left: Top | SkirtRight: Top | Skirt

Despite the fact that I have been drawn to more casual looks this year, I am still a sucker for holiday dresses, and how cute are these two lace ones for ASTR?! I really want ad excuse to NEED these! Linked below:

Red | Blue

Prints! Prints are always a good idea, they make life more fun. Amanda’s sweater is SO cozy and the perfect holiday colors. I was obsessed with my dress, I love the plaid, BUT it runs HUGE! This was an extra small and I was still pinching the back for this photo. Mind you, it is supposed to fit loose, but still, order a size down. I think both of these looks would pair best with heels, especially the sweater as it is so casual. Linked below:

Left: Sweater | JeansRight: Top | Dress

Amanda and I didn’t even notice that we came back to the fitting rooms with the same shirt, but both had different bottoms in mind! It is super cute but I highly recommend the bralette underneath like Amanda did, it is super loose and you would be able to see a regular bra. Also Amanda swapped the skirt for the center shirt for a dressier look, but still corduroy! Linked below:

Left: Top | Bralette | JeansCenter: Top | SkirtRight: Top | Jeans

These next looks are more for NYE, but how fun are they?! I feel like this is the time to get a little more out there. Wear all glitter or sequins, and make it something kind of edgy and sexy. You want to ring in the new year feeling good, right? Amanda’s black jumpsuit is to die for! So fierce! And this sequin top, I mean come on, with black jeans and some strappy black heels? YES! Linked below:

Left: JumpsuitRight: Top (similar) | Jeans

Not going to lie, I feel like Austin Powers in this top yet I am loving it! The ruffle neck is so British, but it is shiny with a slight animal print, so fun! Amanda’s top is super flirty. Sheer, low cut, and ties in the back. Both would be best with a pair of strappy black heels! Linked below:

Left: Top | JeansRight: Top | Jeans

THESE DRESSES. That is all I have to say, they are self explanatory. Every NYE I want to wear a sparkly dress and every year I don’t. THIS YEAR IS MY YEAR! Also, how amazing is this velvet duster?! We both wanted it so bad! PS- Amanda’s dress has a corset type ribbon in the back. Linked below:

Left: Dress | DusterRight: Dress | Duster

Below are some bonus looks I love! Why can’t we just buy them all?! All linked below (all pics from Nordstrom):

OBSESSED with these jumpsuits! Also, I have been stalking that center dress for over a year… LeftCenterRight

You have to have red options for Christmas, it’s a must! LeftRight

Velvet is always a good idea in the winter. Rock the left for NYE or the right for Christmas! You can even add a blazer.

Do you know what you’re going to wear yet? I am still unsure, I am trying to find that look that just calls to me. I do however, know what I am wearing for NYE and I am SO EXCITED! I will do another post soon on more sparkly ideas for that. Stay tuned!

Happy Monday!! 🙂

Falling Behind

Happy Monday!

It is crazy how one off day can throw off your entire week. Sundays are my blog day, or at least have become my blog day. This is when I plan my week, write blogs, plan and draft Instagram posts, the whole shebang. The Sunday after Thanksgiving though we drove home from Arizona and when we got home I was so tired from the weekend I promptly fell asleep and did no planning, thus resulting in NOT A SINGLE BLOG POST LAST WEEK. It is too hard to play catch up during the week, I wasn’t even that great on Instagram. That single day caused me to have no motivation all week which is bad considering how good I have been with planning (at least for me). Fast forward to yesterday, I barely had time to plan again! I went out Saturday night for my friend’s boyfriend’s birthday and I didn’t even get home until 3am so of course I slept in and wasted half my day. I am trying really hard to snap back into it and re-motivate myself, especially with the year coming to a close. I will not fall back into bad habits! So here is to a new week, let us make it a good one and drink all of the coffee!

Green is My Color!

I have been SO OBSESSED with this emerald/forest green color this season! So much so I keep having to tell myself no when I try to buy ANOTHER piece in this color. I have a blazer and high waist, wide leg pants, but I also want a sweater now… In reality, how many pieces in the same color is acceptable to have?

I think I need to limit myself because the blazer and the pants are definitely statement pieces. I have gotten a ton of compliments on both, and both are super comfy because they are over-sized. I prefer the looser blazers that do not have shoulder pads. Fitted blazers can be so restricting, and I have been loving pairing them over a casual outfit and adding heels like I did below. Jeans, a graphic tee, blazer, and booties or heels just looks so chic. Mixing style genres (is that the right term?) is so fun and kind of edgy. I also like that it is not my usual style. One of my co-workers told me she couldn’t figure out my style and I took it as such a compliment!

Both of these pieces are also great as your one pop of color with an all black outfit, the blazer especially. For work I would do a black blouse, black ankle slacks, the blazer, gold accessories, and either black or leopard shoes (heels or flats – preferably mules/slides).

Check them out below! To be honest, I am most likely going to buy a sweater still… I just love the color with my red hair. Stay tuned! Styles linked below:

Blazer | Top (is 4 years old, any white graphic tee will work, I like this one here 🙂 |  Jeans (similar) | Booties (similar)

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Top (potential alternative) | Pants | Heels

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