Fave #NSale Outfit

I am really excited about the outfit I found from the Nordstrom Anniversary sale, mostly because I can already wear it now. I know the sale has a ton of fall items and sweaters, and yes I bought a couple, but I can’t wear any of those for the next few months and I want to wear my new stuff now! When I went into Nordstrom the day early access started, I already knew what I had my eye on from online, but I stumbled across this top and these jeans on accident. When I saw the top, by BP, it was one of those moments when as soon as you see it you know you have to have it.

I grabbed it to try on and wanted to see how it looked with jeans (I was in a dress) so I grabbed a pair of Topshop jeans that were also part of the sale. Topshop jeans are my absolute favorite, they fit so great and are so comfy. I have been wanting raw hem jeans and these ones I found were high waist (the Jamie), raw hem, AND a step hem. I used to not be crazy about step hems but as soon as I tried them on I was in love with them. I tried the whole look on (I had already purchased the shoes downstairs) and I was sold. My only hesitation about the jeans was that they were kind of short. The super sweet sales associate though told me we could order them in a 32 length, #tallproblems.

I love that this top can be worn with jeans or with dress pants to work, same with the shoes, they are so cute and comfy! This is definitely my favorite find from the sale. What about you all, create any good looks?

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Friday 5 – Places to (not really) be Basic in Las Vegas

My last Friday 5 was for downtown Palm Springs and it was so fun. Every place we went was perfect and we took a ton of photos, which was the point (you can catch up on that post here if you missed it!). I figured the next place I should do is Las Vegas because I was going to visit my little sister. I wanted to show 5 Places to be Basic in Las Vegas without doing Vegas. We picked our 5 places, picked out outfits, then planned our schedule. Let’s just say that this trip didn’t go quite as well as Palm Springs. This edition kind of turned into places to NOT GO to be basic in Las Vegas.

Before we started our adventure, we took a side adventure to the Seven Magic Mountains. Are you really on Instagram if you didn’t take a photo with this colorful art installment? We thought not. I was going to add this to the 5 but it won’t be around forever. Last I read it was supposed to end in May I think, but I just checked and the website says at a minimum it will be up through the end of 2018, so if you haven’t gone there is still time!

Anyways, back to today’s program, 5 Places to maybe be basic in Las Vegas, plus a bonus location:

1- The Downtown Container Park, in downtown Fremont, is exactly what it sounds like, a shopping area made out of containers! The place is bordered with freight containers that were made into little shops, boutiques, and food places. The middle had basically a park. It was so unique! Some containers were vertical with three levels of little shops, and some were laid horizontal for larger shops. We took a lap, got gelato, and took pictures obviously. It is a cool place to take photos because it’s not your typical shopping center, not to mention the giant praying mantis statue out front that apparently blows fire at night?! A bonus to this place is that it is walking distance to one, Fremont Street, but also to a few street murals, and an old bus with meerkats. Yes I know that sounds weird, see the photos below to understand. This place was a definite good place.

2- Corduroy, a bar on Fremont street looked so cool on Instagram! There were a bunch of people with pictures in this little room with vertical lights (see below), and that is mainly why we went. We walked in literally 5 minutes after it opened, slightly overdressed, and it was a complete sausage fest. The bar was full of dudes and as soon as we walked in they all just turned and looked at us. Have you seen the movie Eurotrip? If you have, remember the nude beach scene when it was all guys? That was the basic feel. We couldn’t just back up back out the door, we had to act like the confident women we are(n’t) and act like we had purpose, which we did, find the light room. We made a B line for the back to where no one was. On our walk back we looked down both sides for the light room and didn’t see it anywhere! We straight up investigated this place and nothing. Once we got to the very back it was like our sanctuary, an empty room, full of neon painted walls with a black light and early 2000’s tunes playing. We had dance party for two for a quick minute then again made an escape. There were a couple cute places for photos we saw on our walk back up, what we are assuming was a VIP lounge area so we quickly took a picture before someone told us to get out, but the lighting really sucked. We finally made a break for it and literally rushed back out the front door past all the dudes, never to look back. This place was a definite NO! And get this! Later we saw a photo on Instagram of a girl in the light room and her location said it was where we were?! Was it hiding? Who knows, not us because we were too embarrassed to ask.

3- Park on Fremont is probably one of the cutest little restaurants we have eaten at. We found this place by accident on our walk of failure back from Fremont Street (after Corduroy we walked through Fremont which really is not pretty or cool during the day with its fake Moana’s and Transformer street actors, so we got about half way and decided we were done and turned around). We passed the patio of Park and it was so cute we went inside, WHICH WAS ALSO CUTE! It was sort of garden tea party themed with a dark side of Alice in Wonderland. We decided to get a snack and got a little pail of THE BEST SWEET POTATO TOTS I’VE EVER HAD. Photos on the patio came out great, it also looks like a place that would be super cute at night, they have all of the twinkle lights. When we were finished eating we went to use the restroom (also cute) and peeked out the back door onto the back patio and OH MY GOODNESS we wished we would have eaten back there! So tea party-ish and SO MANY good photo opportunities. Even the bike at the front door was Instagram worthy. This place literally saved our day, the best accident ever. A good place, GO THERE.

4- Mermaids at the Silverton Casino… Mermaids are all the rage, we all know this. So when we read you can see a “real” mermaid at the aquarium at the Silverton Casino heck yes we jumped on that! It was also listed as one of the best free attractions in Vegas (according to what Tabitha researched). The Silverton is not on the strip which is a plus, but it was still a tad out of the way, but who cares?! We were going to see a mermaid! We get there and walk in and immediately see a big fish tank. We are looking around for a sign that says “aquarium” and don’t see one. Next to this tank was the Mermaid Lounge, we figured this must be the whole aquarium… It’s cool, we took a front seat in the mermaid lounge and waited for the mermaid to make an appearance. There were a ton of kids sitting at the base of the tank waiting. Same we thought, if we could we would be at the base of the tank too. Finally at the top of the tank, we saw a fin! She was coming! She was… she was… wearing goggles? And a full body suit? And didn’t even have long mermaid hair? What kind of mermaid attraction was this? We just looked at each other and laughed that we came all the way over here for this. This one got a NO!

5- Flamingos at the Flamingo! We love pink and we love flamingos, so off to the Flamingo Hotel and Casino we went! This one is on the strip obviously, but it was the middle of the day, we thought it would be alright. We didn’t really know where to park and passed our first option that was by the Flamingo. It was cool we said we would turn at the next public parking. When we FINALLY found it and parked, we looked on maps for how long it would take to walk to where we were going, umm we were 1.1 miles away! Oops… So we walked, and just because it was the middle of the day did not mean the strip would be any less crowded. We walked like two girls on a mission and made it to the Flamingo! Through the casino we went to wear the real flamingos were and found them… In one tiny section, but hey, still got a photo of a real flamingo. We’d say this place was a good one, some of you may not agree but it was cute.

Bonus- Shakes at Cafe Hollywood in Planet Hollywood. This stop required an outfit change which we did in the restroom at the Flamingo. Again we mapped it and Planet Hollywood was about 0.4 miles away so again we took off. I was so pumped and ready for this shake because they looked SO GOOD on Instagram. Tabitha was being navigator and according to maps, took us through the doors right to the left of the PH entrance, into the mall area. WE CIRCLED THE ENTIRE THING AND DIDN’T FIND A MILKSHAKE. Finally when we got to the end of the shopping at the casino entrance we asked someone. They said go into the casino and it was on the right, like right there. We found it! It wasn’t crowded at all so we got seated right away. We told the waiter we just wanted milkshakes and couldn’t find the fun ones on the menu. He advised they weren’t on there and gave us the rundown. I don’t even remember the flavors they offered because I was deafened when he said they were $17! FOR A MILKSHAKE?! We went with one regular strawberry milkshake that was $7 (still expensive but better). We always say do it for the gram but we draw the line at a $17 milkshake. Our single strawberry milkshake came out quickly and I can’t event describe my feelings of hysteria when I saw it. Just reference the photo below, IT WAS SO SMALL. Like it looked so tiny in the waiter’s hand. I could barely respond when he asked if we needed anything else because I was about to explode into tears of laughter. Tab and I silently looked at each other in utter amazement and then broke out into the loudest muffled laughs ever. You know when you laugh so hard and you try to talk it kind of sounds like you’re literally sobbing? That was the two of us with our tiny $7 milkshake. Once we contained ourselves and took pitiful pictures, we drank it quickly (as in drank at a regular pace and it was gone quickly because it was so small) and got the hell out of there. The restaurant was next to the exit doors and as soon as we walked out WE SAW THE MALL DOORS WE HAD ENTERED THROUGH IN THE FIRST PLACE. 20 more feet and we would have saved ourselves from the entire scenic route through the mall. Again, we looked at each other and about died from laughter. Then we took off on our now 1.5 mile commute back to the car. What would you do for a photo with flamingos and a tiny AF milkshake? We walked a total of 3 miles for them. Sometimes #doitforthegram bites you in the butt, but you got to try! As you can probably get, this was a definite no.

Since this trip Tabitha has discovered some new Instagram worthy places so we will be planning a redo, and I am pretty excited for them. Until then take our advice (or don’t) and don’t hit the no spots. Look for the next Friday 5 post next month and happy Friday!

GRL Collective

I got a pair of earrings from my friends over at GRL Collective and I AM SO IN LOVE! When I say friends that isn’t just a nice formality, the founder of GRL Collective, Kristine, is one of my sorority sisters, we were actually in the same pledge class and it is so amazing to see what she had created.

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GRL Collective has a ton of hand made jewelry, I believe mostly earrings, but they are so much more than that. Kristine, a survivor of child sexual abuse, wants to help educate young girls on how to prevent this type of abuse. Through research she found that one in every two girls in India is sexually abused. She got the idea for the brand when she went on a 40 day volunteer trip to Jodhpur, India, where she got to volunteer at the Sambhali Trust which runs a “no bad touch” program. The trust has two guest houses and several empowerment centers that help young girls with medical care, have a place to live, and access to schools, tutors and education.

“Education is empowering and it is the key to escaping poverty. GRL Collective is a for profit company that has partnered with non- profit, The Sambhali Trust to provide these young girls scholarships to continue their education,” -GRL Collective

A portion of every item purchased goes to funding girls at the Sambhali trust. Through GRL Collective you can also get the chance to volunteer, whether locally in Los Angeles where they work with the Downtown Women’s Center, or internationally as there is a three week trip to Jodhpur, India coming up in October. Seeing everything that Kristine is doing and knowing her story literally gives me chills. Reading her page (and I have done so many times) fills my heart, I am so proud to see her doing such good. Also all of the styles are named after different women, how fun is that! This is not just a fun brand with cute jewelry, this is a brand that is changing the world and I fully support them.

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Check out the GRL Collective website here – GRL Collective. My earrings are the “Nellies” and are part of their Palm Springs line, linked here (if you know or follow me you know how obsessed I am with Palm Springs!). My next will definitely have to be these flamingo ones linked here, *insert heart eyes*! Please check them out, you will fall in love I promise you, and if you get yourself a pair, know you are helping to make a difference. These young girls need us!

4th of July and Things

Hey you all! It has been awhile (I feel like I have been starting every post off with that, but hey it is the truth). Everything has been so busy! I feel like I have had something almost every weekend until this weekend. Now I got to rest before having something for the next three weekends again.

I hope everyone had a great 4th of July! I had no plans until the day before, but I was able to go to Heather and her boyfriend’s friends BBQ and it was so fun! We hung out with good people, ate great food, played corn hole, and sported our red, white, and blue. Where they live is kind of on a hill so we had a good view of a ton of fire works.

Leading up to the 4th I had a project in mind. Ever since IGTV came out I’ve been really wanting to try and make a video. I planned out a 4th of July video and had my bfffff help me with it. I really wanted to do sparklers on the beach. I had my red bathing suit, she had her 4th of July tank, and I picked up sparklers from my dad’s, we were all set. We were kind of nervous about using the sparklers on the beach. Fireworks are only legal at Huntington Beach between 12-10pm on the 4th of July. Sooo we ended up chickening out, plus it was super windy, plus it was taking forever for the sun to set, plus we mostly chickened out haha. We ended up doing the sparklers a few days later by the pool so when you see the video pretend it is all in one day (go to my channel on Insta to see it!).

Okay so I am new to this video thing and really have no skills. I was so excited to finish it, I added a song, and once I posted it Intsagram blocked it because of the song! Is there a special way to put music on a video? I was trying to research and I read you have to find a non-copyrighted song so I guess that will be my next hunt. I may repost my video with a new song if I find a good one because I had to use the ones available on iMovie and it’s alright. Any tips would be greatly appreciated!

Anyways a couple other things, we had my sister’s surprise 30th birthday party last weekend on June 30th and I am so happy it is over! The party was really fun but throwing a surprise party is hard when you live with the person, ESPECIALLY when that person is my older sister (no offense). I am like 99% sure she knew about the party but oh well, it all worked out.

Lastly next weekend I am off to Vegas to spend the weekend with my little sister! We are going to do “kind of Vegas” so I ordered a “kind of Vegas” dress (hopefully it gets here on time!). When I say kind of Vegas I mean we are going to a pool at Fremont Street and maybe a couple other places but most likely not mainstream Vegas (unless it leads there). It will be fun! She also said I need to practice talking to boys… she said I have a “why are you talking to me face” that I need to work on (I type this rolling my eyes and probably making said “why are you talking to me face”). Excuse me that I am awkward and do not know how to talk to boys!

Well that is all for now, have a happy Monday and I hope your weekend was great!

Statement Earrings

Happy Monday everyone! I hope you have all been well and had a great weekend. We had my older sister’s surprise party for her 30th birthday. Let me tell you, surprise parties are hard to plan especially when you live with the person you are surprising! Plus she is crazy in the best possible way and insisted on throwing her own party thinking we were not going to do anything anyways, so all of her friends were getting so confused keeping the fake party and the real party straight. By the time it came around she was very suspicious of the surprise, like I am pretty sure she knew, but we all had a great time and she got very drunk so all was well!

I have been SO obsessed with statement earrings. I am sure this is a common obsession since they are very popular right now, but I love adding them to everything as a fun pop! I feel like they are a way to get extra creative, like you can get brave and wear fun and funky ones. I love adding them for a pop of color especially with a darker or a plainer outfit. Here I added them to my black and white striped one piece bathing suit and it completely changed the look. The suit is cute by itself but there is only so much you can do with a one piece, it is just one piece so it’s a little plain. The earrings actually made it a look and is so fun for a weekend by the pool or a pool party.

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 earrings | bathing suit | shorts

Right now my favorite place to get fun earrings is Target. I am so obsessed with the Sugar Fix by BaubleBar line there. BaubleBar is so cute but I can always justify the price for earrings, but their line at Target I think is just as nice as their normal line. Most of the styles by Sugar Fix are around $12-$15, totally affordable! I think I have like 6 pairs so far! If you have any suggestions for fun earrings please send them my way!

Have a great week and the 4h of July is just around the corner!

Blogger on Vacation

It has been forever and a half since I have posted a blog and I apologize. I do not really know why. You know when you have been good about going to the gym, and you take a day off and it is okay, but when you take a few or more days off you just fall out of your groove and don’t want to go anymore? That is kind of what happened. Anyways, last week I glanced at Old Navy online and they have so many cute things (and sales)! They have a collection called Bold Botanicals and it has the cutest summer prints. I love all of the resort wear styles, it makes me want to be on vacation all the time, but instead I just wear them and pretend. I always say “I want to dress like a blogger on vacation,” when I go somewhere for a little weekend vacation. I even said that was my goal style when we went to Mexico last summer. It is funny though because I am a blogger, and I was on vacation, so why do I say I want to dress like a blogger on vacation when I AM a blogger on vacation? I need to be better about not discounting what I am just because I am not that big. I am working on growing my following but just because it is not huge yet does not make me any less of a blogger! So something for me to work on and believe in myself.

This last weekend my sisters, bfff, and I went on our Palm Springs trip and I WAS A BLOGGER ON VACATION. On Sunday for the morning and Father’s Day I wore one of the dresses from Old Navy (on sale for $15 right now!) and it was so cute! I am linking it below along with a few of my other faves.

Enjoy and happy Tuesday!

PS – If you didn’t see on my Insta story, I got braces yesterday! Currently on a liquid diet and not enjoying it but I keep being told it will get better. It better or the next 18 months will suck. More on that later!

Dress | Sunglasses | Earrings | Wedges | Purse | Lipstain

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Life Changes and Heartbreak

I think it is time to get a little real, okay a lot real. I think I am ready. The last four months have been nothing less than a roller coaster. Instagram as everyone knows, or should know, is not real life. It is real and the pictures and moments we share are real, but the good cannot exist in this life without the bad, and naturally we only choose to share the good. The past four months I have worked hard to keep up “good” and “fine” appearances on social media, but I was not fine. From a few subtle Instagram stories I shared, some may have noticed that I moved, but you may not know why.

Since I have moved out of my parents house four years ago, I have moved four times and I HATE MOVING. First I moved in with one of my best friends (you all know her, it was Heather!), the next year I moved in with my boyfriend, the next year he and I moved into a new apartment (hang on, let me rephrase that, I MOVED us to a new apartment while he was away at basic training), and a year and a half later, I just moved in with my sister and her family, without him.

About four months shy of four years and he ended it. This was exactly four months ago today. Even four months later I still can’t believe it sometimes. I understand why, but I don’t understand why. Why after almost four years can you not know if you EVER want to get married? How can you start a relationship so perfectly and as the years go on, lose how to be a boyfriend? Lose affection? Why couldn’t you try? Why didn’t you want to try? Why are you so convinced you cannot change?

So things ended and we lived together. Our lease doesn’t end until October and there is no way out unless he gets military orders. We were stuck. I had to come home and see the man who broke me every night. Eventually he started staying at a friends during the week and I would come home to sit in our apartment alone. I left almost every weekend for a distraction and so he could actually come home. Finally after a month, he offered to take over the lease and my sister and brother-in-law offered to let me move in. That was the hardest move I have ever done. How was I supposed to pack up my things and leave his behind? To remove any trace of me out of that apartment that we made our home? It took a lot to get the motivation to even start. I would go through waves of emotions while packing, devastation, frustration, anger, sobbing. Mostly I just packed through constant silent tears. I got it all done and started officially living with my sister in March. Driving away after giving him the keys made it real, I would not be seeing him again. It felt like a month long breakup, the slowest band aid in the world.

I understand why. You don’t know if you ever want to get married or have a family, but you know I do, and you don’t want to waste anymore of my time. I get it. I also get that I didn’t give you that feeling that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me. You didn’t love me like I loved you. These last four months have been the hardest for me. I have to drive by our old apartment twice a day and every time I am looking for your truck both terrified and longing to be even next to you on the freeway. I have never experienced such emptiness, brokenness, anxiety, and suffocation all at the same time. It was like someone was sitting on my chest and it was hard to breathe, and for hours every day I have to sit in my car with no one but my thoughts of you and how you don’t want me anymore. I think of how I wanted to be the one who changed you, to make you want to be better. But I guess you really can’t change people, only God can, and I still continue to pray for you every day. I still feel weird without you, like I am not quite myself. Sometimes I feel like I do not know how to carry on a conversation anymore because every story I want to tell has you in it. How am I just supposed to take you out of my life when I wanted you in it forever? How am I supposed to be normal at a family function when everyone is with their significant other and they all know mine left me? What do you say when all your friends say “the right guy will come,” and you just want to scream because you feel like the right guy just didn’t want you? Deep down you pray they are right, but you don’t even want to pray for the right guy because it feels wrong and you just want the old guy back. How am I supposed to breakup with your family that has become my family? I feel like I am the one that failed sometimes.

For the first time in a long time I feel like I have no control because my future is unknown, and it is an unsettling feeling that I hope turns to excitement eventually. It is often hard for me to let go, and when I say often I mean always. Life feels like it has completely turned upside down. I am so thankful to my sister and brother-in-law for letting me move in, but it is their home and not mine. I am a long term guest and I try so hard to not be in the way. For the first time I don’t feel like I have a real home, a place I can truly call mine. My days are spent in my car commuting and at work, if I am lucky I have 3 hours to do anything. My commute tripled and I now drive 46 miles one way. In order to get to work early enough to leave early enough to avoid as much traffic as I can, I have to leave for work by 5:15am and leave for home by 3:30pm. The drive in still takes at best an hour and ten minutes and the drive home averages an hour and a half to two. If I go to the gym I am not home until after 7 or 8pm. Trying to go to bed early has been a joke and waking up at 4:15am is next to impossible most days. Weeks of averaging five hours of sleep a night doesn’t work for me very well and doesn’t do any good for outrageous emotions.

Two weeks ago he picked up his dirt bike from my dad’s. That was the last lingering piece of him. I noticed after it was gone I felt a little lighter. Maybe I was anticipating him going to pick it up because I wanted to know what he would say to my dad and how he would act. It was like I was going to live vicariously through my dad to have one last connection with him. Now there is nothing left and I felt okay. I actually noticed I have been significantly better until I sat down to write this blog. You would think you only had so many tears to spare for one person, but no they come yet again. I do not regret our four years together despite everyone telling me they wished he hadn’t have wasted so much of my time. I was still in love, even if looking back now it may have been more one sided than I chose to believe. I know now I deserve better. I want someone that will hold my hand in private and in public, someone who will hug me every day like they mean it and will give me a good morning kiss, hello I am home from work kiss, I will be right back kiss, a good night kiss, and any other kiss in between. I want someone who will say I love you first and not just say it in response with no emotion. I want someone who isn’t afraid to post a picture with me and show everyone he knows that I am his. I want someone who isn’t afraid to pray and love God.

Every day I get stronger, and still some days seem like a step back. I can’t see a black Ford F150 without my heart fluttering, but last week I drove by the apartments and didn’t notice until I passed them. One day at a time, that is all I can give myself. I thank God every day for all of the friends and family He has put in my life to help get me through this. For the ones who know I don’t like to talk about these things but want me to know they are still thinking of me and praying for me even if they aren’t asking about it. I pray for him too, that God will change his heart and that one day he will find true happiness. One day at a time and eventually I will be there.

“Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” Proverbs 4:23

xoxo- B