Clothes have always been my thing. My greatest way to express myself is through style, it has been ever since I got a job at a retail store when I was 16 years old. My passion for dressing up has only grown since then. Sure my style has changed a lot through the years, there were even times where my effort for picking outfits was low, but the love for a good outfit has always been there.

A good outfit gives such a sense of confidence and can set the tone for the whole day. Looking good makes you feel good however, I am in a season of life right now where I just don’t feel excited about my clothes, and honestly don’t feel quite like myself.

I gave birth to my beautiful baby boy in October. Maternity style is a different animal. For the most part, if you wear most any maternity dress while pregnant, you look so cute because it is all about the baby bump. Style after birth though is hard. Maternity clothes somewhat fit still, and pre-pregnancy clothes pretty much do not fit, or fit in a completely different way. I used to love picking out outfits and getting dressed in the morning, but now I mostly dread it. Nothing I have fits how I would like it to. I feel frumpy in everything. Even oversized sweaters just don’t look right to me. Jeans are my worst enemy right now. I need to wear a larger size because I still have post belly weight to lose, but the larger sizes are tight around my belly, baggy on my butt and legs, and they don’t feel comfy.

This mindset of feeling awful and ugly in everything I put on is something I am trying to work on. It is a constant battle, one I generally avoid by wearing sweats or leggings at home… which is easy considering it is winter and our house is freezing. I need to remind myself that I grew a whole baby. I was able to carry him full term and he is wonderful and perfect. I also need to remind myself that the current condition of my body is just a season. It is temporary and I have the ability to help change it. My husband is amazing and always lets me know he still thinks I am beautiful. I appreciate him so much.

Now that I am back to work, I am ready to change. Although I have anxiety of going back to work, I am excited about having a reason to get ready in the morning. I have been feeling the pull to dress up again and make myself feel good. My goal (which I always say, but really mean it this time 😅) is to pick out my outfits for each day in advance, but this time I want to pick out my outfits for the whole week by the Sunday before. This shouldn’t be too hard since I will only be in the office three days a week.

So will I ever feel like me again? Yes, but not the old me. I am coming into my new self, Brittany 2.0. This is my first (sort of) style post in over a year and it feels good. I am excited to feel like the new me, and figure out who she is. This Brittany has been promoted to a mom and I wouldn’t trade that for anything.